shut down

mind tonight is half shut down and half awake

is quite released tonight since the invisible stress around me had been with me the whole sem break

thank god that my efforts pay

amitabha

well...

tomorrow will be cool journey for me

cause is the first time we "sista" go for a trip

and is successful

is really successful this time

and now...

i still dunno what to wear for tomorrow

and now...

my brain already 90% shutdown

so...will update soon when i'm back to klang

will be two post

hmmm...

i'll try to post something

more happy

no more sad and emo post

i try...hmm

think can gua

呼吸着同样的空气
却，过着不一样的人生
近来，好吗？？

early bird @@

hmm..just finish collect and arrange my respondent
release finally with a cup of coffee in starbuck....yummy
decided to blog now cause tonight will be tired and late....
yippie...going to gathering later at damansara ara full house...


while drinking the coffee
there is something pop in my mind
which is
what is the most things is unforgettable even tho is passed years

for me it is the scent

i may forget one's looks
i may forget one's voice
i many forget the memory me between the person

but i could not forget the smell of a person

the smell will make me feels familiar

i might not recall

but i know the smell once belongs to someone

and it is lock inside my memory deep down

have you ever tried that or realized it ???

the feeling is so weird and yet so "romance" ... LOL

it may bitter sweet
it may sour sweet
or is just familiar and nothing special at all...

haha...
yeah..time to back home for a little nap....
tata... ^^

熟悉的味道
偶时会让人激动
因为 它，不知觉唤起了
沉睡的记忆


熟悉的味道
永远也忘不了
代替也代替不了
那个芬芳
永远围绕着嗅觉里
何时。会淡。然后。消失？？

F*

what do F stand for you ???
haha pls no foul words here...
F stands for Friends
F stands for Funs
F stands for Feeling the emotion together


F is the friends who having funs and can shared the feeling of emotion together

i wonder

how you guys form a relation with the person you just met
is it easy for you to trust that this person gonna be a good friends ?
will this person reliable
will this person trustful
will this person is a real friends indeed of those hi bye friends ???

and

what do you feel when the person you named friends
boycott you
lied to you
cheat you
betrayed you
blamed you of not being a good friend

aha

if you feel nothing
i don't think that person is your friend
cause you don't even bother

if you feel deep pain inside
just like the heart being cut by the sharp knife
i bet that you care the person alot just like how you care bout yourself
that's why you feel so hurt so sad so disappointed

i've been betrayed
i've been blame
i've been cheated
i've been lied

and i do feel hurt, pain, sad

and now

i'm starting to loosing confident in trusting people
isn't it a sad thing

i don't trust 100%ly just like last time
i keep the remaining percent as my shield to keep me away from getting hurts

and i realize the truth that
i'm already hurting myself

丫丫喜欢面对角落
平静的角落
让丫丫有依靠
可以静静的思考
毕竟
面壁思过
更清晰的思考

害怕开始一个感情
因为
舍不得结束一个感情
即使是友情
也会胆缺的时候

do u bubbles ????

was thinking should i blog in chinese or english...

am noticed that my english is getting poorer

hmmm....(mind spinning)...

k...decided....chinese...

easier....cause i wanna sleep d...haha...

sowieee to those who dunno how to read chinese....

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人吗。。。
犯贱。。。
总爱追求得不到的人，事，物
越是得不到
越是想占有

因为。。。
得不到的。。。
让人有时间去拥有想象的空间。。。
而想象。。。
永远是最完美的。。。
最美丽的。。。

因为，人，
不喜欢丑
不喜欢不完美
不喜欢不快乐的结局

自然的。。。
为自己设计美好完美的故事
自然的。。。
让自己相信，这个是事实，只是还没实现，只是时间的问题
自然的。。。
催眠自己相信这个假想

但。。。
这只是时间的摧残
慢慢的
慢慢的
折磨着心灵
慢慢的
慢慢的
感觉疲惫
失望
伤心

这就是人的。。。bubble dreams


很美
也
很脆弱


(pok...没了)

my bubbles are pretty

my bubbles is getting weaker and weaker
it is disappearing slowly by slowly
ain't no more bubbles to feed my emptiness
how good if it is not a bubbles dream and is true
ain't not willing..not willing...
to see it disappear...

this post is belongs to 1st of January 2010

from now onwards, imma gonna blog everyday till imma big days...

basically, imma don't recalled what happened on 1st of january 2010...

en...yala...

couldn't recalled at all...none

due to the holiday...

the brain had been shut down

it do not need to workout so hard as during study time

now, imma don't even knew what i had eaten yesterday night...

and now...just wanna do one thing...

which is quickly finish the thick elephant skin mission...

^^

will upload another post tonight...which is for 4th january 2010

wanna collect 25 post for january...

唉。。还是哀？？

真的
为什么
那么的
总是如此

如果
可以
的话

就不会那么的
迷茫
困扰
疑神
猜测

应该再
狠
冷

就不会
一次
的
一次

莫名

乐观还是笨

早已分不清楚了
只希望能像烟花
来的灿烂
去的潇洒

好想

突然好想
找个陌生人聊天
告诉她或他
一切一切不敢告诉于身边的人
有些事。。真的难于启齿
想说。。但不敢说。。
埋在心里。。
快到极限了